Transformation?! What does it mean to you??

I’m curious… what does the word transformation mean to you?

The dictionary defines it as:

transformation/ˌtransfəˈmeɪʃ(ə)n,ˌtrɑːnsfəˈmeɪʃ(ə)n,ˌtranzfəˈmeɪʃ(ə)n,ˌtrɑːnzfəˈmeɪʃ(ə)n/nounnoun: transformation; plural noun: transformations. a marked change in form, nature, or appearance. synonyms:change, alteration, modification, variation, conversion, revision, amendment, metamorphosis, transfiguration, evolution, mutation, seachange; 

Can we wake up one day and be the person we’ve always been, hidden from the world?

It’s funny isn’t it, we all have a preconceived idea of who we are, our mask that we show the outside world.

Different people see different masks. Life experience influences the way we see the world around us. Call it rose coloured glasses or beer goggles…

In your own mind you may see yourself as just a single, working mother doing her best day in day out. Others may see you as a cold, closed off beatch with permanent resting bitch face. Another may see you as the jovial co-worker always up for laugh and a joke. And yet another may see you as inspirational for they are still working up the courage to leave an unhappy relationship & are scared of the unknown.

I believe you can be whomever you decide you want to be. God knows that’s what I decided. I ‘woke up’, said to myself enough is enough. Why am I letting others perception of me & who I should be, how I should act, down to what I should wear dictate what I do with my life? It’s sounds so bloody stupid yet so many of us live this way. Never showing our true soul, our true self, our true character & personality to the world.

Why not? Because we’re shit scared of negative judgement.

I have members of my family mock me when I wear a dress. They percieve me a ‘tom boy’. Despite being related by blood they really have no clue as to who I really am. I save the ‘true’ me for those that show me their ‘true them’ as well.

Keeping the mask intact was exhausting, yet at the same time a comfort, a shield, a protection mechanism from judgment.

It’s taken me about two decades to truly get to a point where I embrace my true self, flaws, quirks & all.

It’s choice. Each day is choice. How you spend your days, weeks, years. What are you focusing on? One of the best things I think I’ve seen lately is the screen time report on our mobile phones. It’s a WAKE UP call! I know it was for me. Hours wasted scrolling, when I could have been doing so much more… Making true connections… Not just sitting on the outside looking in at peoples airbrushed perfect filtered lives…

Just over a year ago I made a choice to pursue a dream…

I’ve known from the time I was a small child that my joy, my heart, my soul path was entwined with horses. They soothe my soul on such a deep, intrinsic level that the thought of living without them sends my heart into palpatations of dread. They are a ‘fix’, my drug of choice, a calming balm to smoothe the wrinkles caused by work, life, & family stresses.

It was drilled into me that it was ‘wrong’ for me to have this deep love for horses. That I was ‘horse mad’ That I’d grow out of it. That I’d never be able to make any money out of them. That I was crazy. That they were a waste of money. The list on knocks & knockers goes on & on & on & on…

Why do we spend so much of our time seeking the approval of others. We give our power away. Connect with those who truly have your best interests at heart. Snapchat & airbrushed filters is not real life. No one is posting their failures…

What’s your dream? What gives you butterflies & makes your heart race?

Are you living it? Or just wishing upon a star…

Isn’t it time to show the world your true colours & fully be that person that you’ve always imagined yourself to be. Stop saying some day, start now! right this very minute! Haven’t you wasted enough time already…


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